My quest: To pursue a life of significance, purpose and personal excellence. To learn to live on God's terms, in God's timing, and for God's purposes. "Not my will, but Thine be done."
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Week 9: Morning Sickness Woes
Just a few days ago, I thought I was at last turning the corner when I felt a little better in the morning. But no, here I am again, at Week 9, and still needing a couple of hours of bedrest every day. When I'm not resting, I'm stumbling around in a daze, getting mini-blackouts the minute I stand up, staring disinterestedly at the various healthy food choices in the fridge, too stooped to sit up straight, too guilty to consider lying down again.
It's debilitating - that's what MS is. Now I know how invalids or chronically ill people feel. How can you feel optimistic about life if you haven't got health?
Maybe it's age. Maybe it's a boy. Whatever. I've told hubby "no more" after this baby.
Hopefully, by that time, we'll be in Melb and living the organic produce/walk to the beach/drive to the countryside lifestyle and I'll get back some of my health.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Week 7: Symptoms
On the plus side, I should be able to save a little more this month as I've cut down on going out.
It's been a pretty rough fortnight. I've got all the textbook symptoms:
- Nausea
- Fatigue
- Breathlessness
- Sore boobs
- Constipation
- Bloated & gassy
- Loss of appetite
- Twinges in the abdomen
Most days, I just can't summon the energy to go out. Even walking the dog yesterday was doubtful, but I had to do it because I needed to fetch Beth from the school bus. I can spend up to 3 hours a day just lying down/napping from sheer fatigue. The nausea means I'm turned off by strong odours, fried food (my fave) no longer appeals to me, and mealtimes are a chore (if I cook, I find I'm turned off by the smells).
Hubby has been very sympathetic and supportive (as well he should!), taking on extra chores like bathing Beth, cooking, cleaning up, ironing Beth's uniforms. This morning, he jested on his way out that after "all this" is over, we'll have to take precautions when we have intercourse. We did it on 2 days out of the recommended 4 in April, and look what happened.
Have shared the good news with a few friends and associates:
- Edwin (I asked him to be my proxy for last Fri's meeting as I couldn't bring myself to get up at 5.30 and go through a 2-hour meeting)
- Debs (I asked her if USANA Essentials are safe to take in pregnancy)
- Shirlynn (I felt so off-colour while waiting to meet her for lunch last week that I almost couldn't stand up)
- Kat & Mei Ling (who asked if I was feeling better cos I'd skipped CG on Fri)
- Cat
- Chris Koh (she asked if I'd added to the family)
- Mila (she wanted to meet for tea)
- Siyong (she wanted to meet for a discussion about the kids' prog for the church retreat next month)
Have not told my extended family yet tho'.